Bella Italia – it surely is a beautiful place BUT without someone to share it loses its edge. I returned from Bonnie Scotland on Monday at about midnight but on my own! Rose has had to stay in Edinburgh as she has a heavy bronchial infection which we both felt it was not a good idea for her to travel. The journey was not too bad – in fact a flight which was almost two-thirds full – so I had a set of 3 seats to myself. However the journey from Milan down to Torre Pellice was not quite so simple – a bus from Malpensa airpport to Milano Centrale station – from there a direct train to Torino – and then one of our colleagues collected me for a 1hour journey home. In total about 4 and half hours – so I arrived home around midnight. This was a very tiring journey and probably would not have helped Rose to recover.
We have no doubt it was the right decision for Rose’s health but for me it feels very strange to be here on my own in the house and in the office. I struggle to make myself go to bed at night and when I do I am not getting much sleep. Such are the troubles of a wife-less husband!!
Strange feelings as I make dinner for 1 and make too much of course! Rose is spending the time getting herself a bit better and also being able to spend a bit more time with her mum – which is a bonus for both of them.
This is not a very uplifting post but it is not easy to be uplifting when you are tired and on your own – however as someone reminded me last night – I must look up and see the Lord (Hebrews 12:1). I praise Him that He is with me and although it feels lonely at times the reality we experience is not in fact the totality of reality. There exists a spiritual reality which we are only vaguely aware oftentimes but in fact is more real and lasting than what we experience in time and space.
Very philosophical stuff I know – but what can you do when you are alone with your thoughts and the Lord for company!! He speaks and we listen – if we want to become one of the Wise men – knowledge of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom!!
Well if you are reading this and think ‘well what is he moaning about I am on my own all the time mostly’ I salute you but also suggest that you have a great opportunity to wait on the still small voice of the Lord. No better time to begin a new life than at the start of a New year – and you don’t need to rely on your own determination or resolutions which inevitably get broken – no you can put yourself in the hands of the Lord of life and know He will care for you.