Here I am in Cannes having a break with my lovely wife in (mostly) sun andit should be brilliant. Most of the week it has been and we have been blessed with a good share of sun. We have relaxed and had some fun – the first time in a long while really but then my joy just got stolen and I am trying to keep on going. These times seem to come from nowhere and I wonder just what I have learnt in these 56 years…very often I think – not a lot. The same things which tripped me up when I was 6 seem to be able to trip me up at 56!!
What a strange game this life is and how easy I am fooled into thinking that things will go smoothly. Perhaps I am writing this at the wrong time but I need to do something with these feelings and this seemed a good idea – maybe I will regret it but it seems right just now so I am going with it. this will not inspire anyone and it is not mean at to but I trust it will let you realise if you have not already that life is not a walk in the park and indeed is more of a mountain trek with weights tied to your legs. Mine seem to be very heavy just now but I am still struggling on and although slowed and tired I am at least not sliding down the mountain. I wish I could end on a high note to say that I looked up and everything was put in a different light but I am not able to at the moment and so I leave you here hoping and praying that your day is not like this and that you are striding on in this life towards the goal.